Somewhere in the Middle

So, the Casting Crowns concert was last night. I’m not sure why, but their concerts always seem to “get” me.

I have loved Voice of Truth since High School, and they sang it last night, followed by Somewhere in the Middle, from their new album. I’ve listened to it a few times, but it became one of favorites after last night.

The last half of the song says:

Somewhere between my heart and my hands

Somewhere between my faith and my plans

Somewhere between the safety of the boat and the crashing waves

Somewhere between a whisper and a roar

Somewhere between the altar and the door

Somewhere between contented peace and always wanting more

Somewhere in the middle You’ll find me

Just how close can I get, Lord, to my surrender without losing all control

Fearless warriors in a picket fence

Reckless abandon wrapped in common sense

Deep water faith in the shallow end

and we are caught in the middle

With eyes wide open to the differences

the God we want and the God who is

but will we trade our dreams for His

or are we caught in the middle

Lord, I feel You in this place and I know You’re by my side

Loving me even on these nights when I’m caught in the middle

Most of you know that I want to be a Special Ed teacher…

Some of you know that my BHAG…Big Hairy Audacious Goal (Thanks Dr. Falwell)…is to open a Christian School with a strong Special Ed program, so that all families will have access to a Christian education, no matter what disabilities or challenges their children have.

I’ve had these goals for a while, and my mind has been so focused on them that I haven’t really been paying attention to the path God seems to be leading me down.

Last Spring Break, I was in NYC. This was my third time in The City, but it was my first mission trip. We worked at Manhattan Christian School, sleeping in the classrooms in Washington Heights (Spanish Harlem). I fell in love with that school, and Manhattan Bible Church. When you think of church in NYC, I had always imagined Catholic churches or a mega church, like Brooklyn Tabernacle, and thought I would never find a “small” Baptist church like I’m used to. But, I found one. It runs the school. I miss it.

I really feel that God wants me to go back…to teach at MCA, but it freaks me out.

I grew up here:

Not exactly the Big Apple. Growing up in a small town doesn’t prepare one to live in NYC. But, God doesn’t necessarily called the equipped…He equips those who are called.

Here are the full lyrics to Somewhere in the Middle:

Somewhere between the hot and the cold

Somewhere between the new and the old

Somewhere between who I am and who I used to be

Somewhere in the middle, you'll find me

Somewhere between the wrong and the right

Somewhere between the darkness and the light

Somewhere between who I was and who You're making me

Somewhere in the middle, you'll find me

Just how close can I get, Lord, to my surrender

without losing all control

Fearless warriors in a picket fence

Reckless abandon wrapped in common sense

Deep water faith in the shallow end

and we are caught in the middle

With eyes wide open to the differences

the God we want and the God who is

but will we trade our dreams for His

or are we caught in the middle

Somewhere between my heart and my hands

Somewhere between my faith and my plans

Somewhere between the safety of the boat and the crashing waves

Somewhere between a whisper and a roar

Somewhere between the altar and the door

Somewhere between contented peace and always wanting more

Somewhere in the middle You’ll find me

Just how close can I get, Lord, to my surrender without losing all control

Fearless warriors in a picket fence

Reckless abandon wrapped in common sense

Deep water faith in the shallow end

and we are caught in the middle

With eyes wide open to the differences

the God we want and the God who is

but will we trade our dreams for His

or are we caught in the middle

Lord, I feel You in this place and I know You’re by my side

Loving me even on these nights when I’m caught in the middle

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Now playing: Casting Crowns - Somewhere In The Middle